Hard to believe that I just went a whole week without posting anything. It’s not that I haven’t been thinking a lot,  I just haven’t put anything down on paper. After watching a video this week I was going to write about my background and how that is causing my interest in the “scene”  to wane dramatically. My interest in spanking is still there and probably always will be,  but there are a lot of things that have occurred over the last 18 months that have contributed to my interest fading.

Actually I guess that these behaviors have always been there,  what is different is my reaction to them. I even remember when I first noticed it and that was at a party early last year. As is my normal way,  when someone stopped to talk to me I made sure that the person who was with them was included in the conversation. Testosterone must have been flowing that day because I shook the hand of a man who was looking at a wall when he ‘accepted’  my greeting. Any attempt to engage this individual was met with them just looking over my head and not responding. I’m a short ass so it is easy to look over my head 🙂

That was the start,  when I first noticed something was wrong. For whatever reason I let that get to me. It is something that has probably always been there,  it’s just that I was blind to it. Or maybe I am making an excuse and that it was such blatant disrespect that I had every right to feel angry. The problem is though,  I started to pay attention to the things that bothered me. That’s the big problem here,  the way that I react to situations. Maybe this week I will write about who I am and what is ingrained in me to accept and to not accept,  it should make for an interesting read. One thing is for sure,  if I don’t change my outlook I’m going to revert back to a Richard Windsor from 30 years ago,  and he wasn’t a very pleasant man 🙂

This weeks Sunday candid will be added to my WINDSOR’S PADDLINGS folder.