Pretty soon I am going to be starting a new project. It is going to be a vanilla project that you will all be welcome to share in. As I have mentioned previously,  my desires in the spanking world have become so minimal that I don’t really see myself going to any parties other than one each year,  however I will still of course keep this blog going.

I’ll probably write more about it in the future,  but spanking was always my escape from the real world,  a place where I could share my secret desires with like minded people. I have a hard time in life as it is with shitty people,  I completely withdraw from anyone who I perceive to have little to no compassion towards other people,  that is what made the spanking community such an escape,  because we could all accept each other.

The other side to it,  in real life if anyone at all shows me any form of disdain,  I have no desire to have that person in my life,  I never have and I never will. I’m a beggar to nobody. This might perhaps be a mistake on my part because I have more pride than a lion,  and I’m certain that it was because of how I grew up,  but nobody will EVER need to tell me a second time that my company isn’t welcome,  once is more than enough and I won’t let anyone get a second chance to repeat themselves. As the years went on it was easy to overlook it in the spanking world,  I mean you don’t have to like everybody but we are all there for the same purpose so each person happily gets on with their scene. I became so invested in the spanking world though that it started to seep into real life for me. Watching the separations,  the disagreements,  the arguing,  the shunning,  all of it,  it wasn’t the spanking world that I once knew. It took away so much of my enjoyment from being in the scene.

The scene has also evolved,  perhaps to a point where I have been left behind a little bit. Over on Twitter I made this point one time,  how the scene used to be and how it is right now. Holy shit did that trigger one girl,  lol. Without hesitation she let me know that if I didn’t like how it was then perhaps I shouldn’t be in it. It’s kind of funny really,  because the attitude that was shown in that reply was one of the exact reasons as to why I no longer felt a part of it. I’m pretty sure that what I need to do is to withdraw from the active scene for a few years. It doesn’t mean that I won’t continue to play privately,  even if my personal interest level has waned a little,  but I can still have the option there.

My goal for the next 12 months is going to be a video project that I am going to share on YouTube. I’ve saved up to put myself in this position,  and let me first say that it is probably going to fail,  however,  I don’t really care if it does fail. I’ve saved my money to give this a serious shot and over the next 12 months I am going to invest in my project. If it does indeed fail then so be it,  I’m not going to have any regrets,  I’m not going to worry about the lost investment. It’s more important for me to at least give this a try and not succeed,  than to not try and always wonder what it would have been like.

My video project is going to take place in New York City and it is going to be an educational project. Even if it doesn’t succeed at the very least I will be able to leave a mark and know that I taught some people a few things. Obviously this winter I am going to Japan,  Taiwan,  South Korea,  Thailand,  Laos and Vietnam,  and that will be a part of it as well. While my New York adventures will be educational,  my foreign trips will be a travel vlog to show people the beautiful places and the wonderful people that I will meet in each country.

Am I hopeful that my project will take off? Actually I am. If it works out then I could be self employed until I retire. I’ll need some luck,  I might need one video to get picked up by a news outlet or something,  or perhaps hit it lucky and get a sponsor if they like my narration. Bottom line though,  I’m going down with the ship on this one,  if it works then great,  and if it doesn’t I can hold my head up high and say that I at least gave it a shot. More to come on this soon,  just as soon as I get my arrangement with Youtube mailed to me then I can get started.

My image this week is from San Lorenzo in 1963 and will be added to my PLAYFUL SPANKINGS folder. I’m not certain what is going on,  but the guy has a somewhat decent wrist grab going on,  though to be fair it isn’t perfect but she doesn’t exactly seem to be fighting it. Then in his left hand I do believe that he is holding her flip flop. It is a bit hard to tell if it is a flip flop or a plimsoll,  but the one still on her foot looks like it is open toed so I am going with flip flop.