*2/26/09 Update*
The video was totally slowing the page down so I have removed it. Tomorrow I will have a lot to share with you, but continue to enjoy these pics for now đŸ™‚
Here is one of those little hidden gems that I keep stored away to post for a special occasion. Now I had planned to post a lot more stuff in this post to celebrate passing the 2 million hits mark, however, at the request of the Vicar and my Mum, I am going to write and record a Eulogy to be played at my Brother’s funeral this Friday as I cannot be there in person.
On that subject by the way, I have been battling with myself as to what the appropriate approach is in dealing with the death of a family member. Part of me wants to grieve and express the hurt that I feel, especially as it is now two weeks past that fateful day and everything has begun to set in.
Part of me also wants to say “Well, continue as normal. You can’t change what happened and you have to carry on with your life”. Even though I know it is the correct approach, I can’t help but feel that it is callous to go that route.
Now throw in the coup de grace here as well, I run a series of spanking websites where I see it as my goal to entertain my readers/viewers. Again, I can’t help but feel that it is somehow morally wrong to provide a form of sexual stimulus when inside I am hurting in several different ways.
It is a dilemna that I have battled with over the last two weeks, trying to find what the right balance is. I’m actually a very self confident person who takes a road of individuality. I don’t make apologies for who I am nor what I do, nor do I worry about how some may judge me for good or for bad. I believe in nothing but the truth and I feel that those who understand where I come from will “Get me”, and those who don’t wll at least learn something from my approach and perhaps takes a few snippets here and there. What everyone will get though is the complete honest truth.
So why did I just write that above? Honestly, it is because on this rare occasion I AM frightened that people will judge me negatively. I don’t want people to read this, and my other blogs, and say to themselves “His Brother has just died and here he is posting happy spanking thoughts and pictures”. It is a fine balance that I have struggled with lately. I’m hurting, but I also have an audience to entertain, where would YOU draw the line?
I am seriously interested in knowing honest thoughts. Don’t be afraid to hurt my feelings or have a different viewpoint to mine. I can take it, honestly I can. How would you approach dealing with that balance?
By the way, do comment on the pictures as well. The sender wishes to remain anonymous but that doesn’t mean that they won’t be reading this post and reading the appreciation as well. There is so much to love in this set of pics. An M/F OTK spanking,  sexy white panties (a major plus in the pup’s book), tights/pantyhose, AMATEUR SPANKING PICS, and a great bloody angle to look at them. Excellent job anonymous, I personally love this little picture set, thank you so much đŸ™‚
Richard Windsor.
P.S. I couldn’t give a rats arse what the damn spell checker says, it has always been spelt DILEMNA and it always will be in my eyes. đŸ˜‰
Richard,
Love the pictures/they are great.
As for how you should feel – everyone is different in how they deal with a family member dying. There is no right or wrong way to feel. Life has to go on, no matter what. Grieve when you need to;work,laugh,play when you need too is how I feel about it.
Pup: Great pics—Like you I love to see the white nylon panties being spanked, and , like you, I love the same angles of the spanking—I wish all your spanking pics were nylon panties—-As for your feelings, I think grief is a private thing—You grieve as you must, but life does go on and you have to “do your thing to entertain” as well—I have worked in the public domain for many years, and when I have lost loved ones I too grieve, but I also must carry on my “public” job, which is also to entertain. When I was hurting privately, I came to work with my best “game plan”—You showed us your best spanking pics at a time when your heart was heavy—That is how you show respect for your brother—Carry on Pup—You have a great website and we all love you!!!
I’m not a Christian and I have very little time for much of what the bible has to say but one bit “Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself” (probably misquoted) has always been a bit of advice that I have found useful, when in situations similar to the one that you now face (where you cannot know the opinion of the most important person in this situation, for you your brother). So perhaps it would help if you considered the situation reversed, if it where you who where gone and your brother was the one facing the dilemna would you have wanted him to have “shut up shop” for a while or would you have wanted him to carry on as best he could? Well I’m not sure if that is much help to you but it has always helped me sort my head out, when I was in this kind of situation.
Liked the pictures, as stills they have a great sense of motion and struggle.
Prefectdt
Rich, I loved the pics. They are awesome! Thank you to anonymous for allowing them to be posted.
As for your feelings, you are perfectly correct in whatever you are doing, when you are doing it. No one handles grief the same. Do what feels right and best to you at the time. If you feel like posting, post. If you don’t, then don’t. No one has the right to judge you or to say you are right or wrong. Simply allow yourself to be as you are. You will handle your grief in your own way and in your own time. Yes, you are hurting inside deeply. I understand that. That doesn’t change who you are, but makes you a better person because it shows that you care and that you are human. Go with whatever you feel like in a moment, in a space of time. It will all settle in over time and you will know that you lived your life in the best/only way you could and you will be commended for carrying on and moving forward.
I’ll go with what Jean said. That is right on the spot.
Best wishes and respects.
Hey Pup-
I must admit that your recent posts about the loss of your beloved brother have really hit home with me. I recently lost my Mom to a year long battle with lung cancer, she died at the age of 61. It does leave you with so many questions, and no answers that are satisfying. And yes I understand that each person grieves in there own way and there is no right or wrong way to do so. I lived close to my Mom so I was able to be there for the memorial service and I also gave a speech on what a strong and courageous woman she was, and how greatful I was for the time I was able to spend with her. As for moving one and keeping up your blogs and making happy statements and showing pictures was a wonderful way for me to excape my overwhelming grief. It was a great and often needed distraction that gave me a chance to smile and laugh a little in the mists of being totally devastated and engulfed in misery and grief. We all need something to take our minds off the sadness that can sometimes wrap itself around us and bind us to that one place and time.
I have been a spanko since the time I can remember and being able to read about my beloved fetish and see the pictures and watch the videos gave me a well needed break from all the pain for a short while. It was my escape from the real world into a fanticy world of my own making. Please keep up the wonderful work. I visit all of your blogs daily to see what is new.
And as for the pictures, they are breath taking, and shot from differnt and unique angles and a joy to look at over and over. It is almost like you are in the room watching the spanking unfold in front of you, and you feel the aprehention of knowing you are the next one over the spankers lap.
Lastly I just want to express my condolances for your loss, and to let you know I have been there and understand what you are going through.
Hugs and love,
Angela
Richard lovely o.t.k. photos just keep on doing what you do so well making us happy to join with you on your blogs my best wishes to you ,tim.
Instead of repeating myself several times with my response here, I will respond to everyone as a group if that is okay.
Thank you all so much for your continued support, and it really has been a support to me. Next week I will be able to get back to normal as the funeral is tomorrow and we can start to move forward.
Last night was very therapeutic, I wrote and recorded my eulogy to my Brother and despite being perhaps the hardest thing I have ever done, it helped to close the door.
They will be playing the audio at the funeral so I feel like I will be there, and unlike my audios that I do on this site where I can chop and edit them to suit my pleasure, the eulogy I left as a raw piece complete with the errors. I wanted it to sound like I was giving the reading in person and my emotions reflect that. It was VERY hard to get through it all, but I hope that it will provide comfort to my family and to my Brother’s many friends.
There will be one more post on my Brother, and then that door will be closed and only opened privately.
I thank you all so very much for your kindness and compassion, but the time is almost here to cease mourning and begin celebrating a wonderful life.
Rich.
Rich — as one who has lost my brother and my father, I can tell you that life, unfortunately, doesn’t stop. You wish it would for a while, but it doesn’t, and we all need to carry on and process grief as best we can. People cope with pain in many ways, including with humor. Comedy is the flip side of tragedy.
Part of you will always mourn a little, but that part will recede. With the passing of time and the support of your many friends, you will heal. And if anyone would judge you for continuing to post spanky blogs and pictures during the mourning period, screw ’em. You don’t want to know people like that anyway.
RIchard, I understand the need to close the door on the mourning once the funeral is over. Please feel free to always open as needed.
Hi Richard. Everyone grieves differently. It would be disingenuous of you to act a certain way just because others thought it appropriate. That would truly not honor your brother. Anyone who knows the real you, knows the pain you are going through and we all feel for you. Fuck everyone else. Can’t wait to see you in Texas. Hugs Miranda
Rich, Love the recent post and love your site. You have 2 million hits for a reason. My condolences on the loss of your brother. As far as your dilema, I agree with many of the posts here. Everyone grieves differently. To be honest, the people that view this site will understand if you miss a few posts. It will take some time for the hurting to stop, but, like you said, life goes on. I am sure whatever descision you make will be the right one. Best wishes…
Richard,
While I very much appreciate your concern with updating your spanking sites to keep us entertained, I think you should remember that have no obligation, either professional or personal, to do so regardless of personal circumstances. Free websites, like yours and mine, do benefit the public, but that is not the moral justification for their existence. You don’t owe anyone regular updates, for heaven’s sake. Right now, I would say your obligations to yourself, your late brother, and your family are paramount. When you feel it’s time to get back to work, then do so.
All I can think to say is I’m sending you lots of hugs. I lost my dad a few years ago but had to keep it together to help my mom get through things and to move into a different place, then I had to fly back to CA(I was living there at the time even though I came home for the last few months of my dad’s life) with a two year old. Sometimes it seems easier to deal with all the normal parts of life while your struggling to get through the grief. Thank you so much for still being entertaining and the pictures were great.
Quite excellent pictures. I love to see a reaction to the spanking, and this young lady is doing a wonderful job of squirming and kicking. The only thing I would have liked better is if the camera could have been set up so we could see her face, but I certainly understand why that didn’t happen…
Dr. Ken
Richard–sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. My own rather simplistic advice is–do what you feel like doing when the mood hits. If you feel you need to just sit back, think of the past and grieve–than do so. If you feel like a bit of work would be the best medicine–on the blogs or otherwise–do so. There’s no one way, or right way, to handle the situation. As has been pointed out, everybody grieves differently. Listen to your heart, your mind, your emotions–they’ll tell you what to do and when to do them.
Dr. Ken