Where did Windsor go?

Of course some people will show concern and wonder if everything is alright,  so before the Wednesday classic I will fill you all in as to why my presence online has been curtailed.

This year has been the most amazing year ever,  in fact without a shadow of a doubt it is easily the best year that I have ever had. I’m amazingly happy and really at peace with myself. There are times though where I am too content,  I’ve gotten to the stage where I am so comfortable with who I am that it is presenting a few social problems. It was like an Epiphany this year,  like everything crashed down and I was slapped upside the head and it was drilled into me,  don’t take anyone’s shit. I knew what I wanted,  was completely blessed with people who shared that vision with me,  and the things that didn’t make me happy I cleared myself of.

When I left the Shadowlane party last week I got straight on to Fetlife,  chronicling my journey right from the airport,  the flight delays,  the piss poor taxi ride home and my final arrival at 2.30am. The following morning I woke up and went right to Fetlife,  played for a couple of hours and then it hit me,  what was I doing?

It was like Fetlife owned me,  I spent WAY too much time there that it used to dominate my evenings,  like it was the only thing that I had to do. That all hit me last Tuesday and I went drastic in my approach. I deleted Fetlife from my bookmark bar,  turned off every notification that I could possibly get emailed to me from the site,  and as of today it has been eight days since I last logged in there.

I’m not deleting my profile as I plan to go back,  I’m not making any grand announcement that I am taking a break with the hopes of some type of pity party. It is simply that I was spending way too much time there that it was affecting other areas of my life. My friends know how to reach me,  they have my number,  they can text me or they can email me,  I’m not far away. To dispel any rumors before they start though,  you couldn’t wish for a happier man at the moment. There are no issues,  this has been the best year to date,  and there are still at least two more parties to go to that will finish the year off in grand fashion.

There is somewhere in the region,  and I’m not even exaggerating,  of about 100 DVD’s that I have yet to watch. A lot of them are box sets that my family bought me,  but in total there are about 100 DVD’s. That’s what I did last Tuesday night,  I went cold turkey from Fetlife,  turned my PC off and started to watch all of the nature programs that had been unopened to date,  starting with the BBC’s ‘Congo’. That is a part of a DVD collection ‘Atlas of the natural world’. Over the weekend I watched ‘Wild China’ again,  and this weekend it will be the BBC’s box set “Life of birds’

A few of my friends have texted me asking “Is everything okay”? The answer is yes,  everything is more than okay,  it is just about perfect. This year has been so good that I couldn’t wish for more,  it’s just that right now I am feeding my brain 🙂 It should be common knowledge now anyway,  many of my friends have reached out to me and they know that I am simply taking a break from Fetlife. I’m still here,  I’m still engaging with them in a flirtatious manner,  and the voice mails still continue 😉

There are times though when a bit of self evaluation is important,  and right now my brain needs feeding 🙂

This pic will be added to my KISS ME KATE FOLDER