If you have read this somewhere else, it will more than likely have been credited to ‘Houndog’. Just be aware that I am in fact the same person who is known throughout the spanking discussion boards as Houndog.

What is it about this addiction?

It is an addiction, it is a bad addiction, it is a lifelong addiction, except there is one difference.

For this addiction there is no cure, no secret remedy, no thirty day rehab clinic to make you feel all better.

Thirty days cold turkey from this addiction, will just make you even more hungrier than you have ever been for it. It dictates your life, thoroughly consumes your entirity, no single day, no single hour shall pass when you are not thinking of your addiction.

When you have your dose of addiction, it can never be enough. You conive, you beg, you plan, you plot, you barter. No amount can fulfill it.

When you cannot have your addiction, it is the worst feeling in the world. If you are trapped in matrimony without it, all feels lost.

In search of relationship, the world seems your oyster. But is it? You play and play, you search different partners, never a commitment, why would you, another one is right around the corner.

What if you are unlucky, what if you never get your addiction? You settle for second best, you compromise what you can get out of it, only to give what you don’t want to give.

How strong can we be, how many times will we suffer. You feel joy when reading about others fulfilling your addiction themselves. Each time though, there is a deep sadness that you are not getting your addiction.

You see invisible characters write, you dream of their scenarios, you picture yourselves feeding your addiction with that person. Only to have it snatched away by someone else getting the addiction with that person first.

Is it reality, is it healthy? A dozen people come before you each week. Perhaps a smile, perhaps a talk, perhaps a glance. Each one is invalid, the addiction controls whether any relationship can ever form.

The addiction. Are you happier with the addiction? Would you be happier without this curse? Are we happier with this addiction than most people in life?

What other addictions out there are so controlling. No drug, no drink, no lifestyle, can ever come close to the power that this addiction holds over you.

Will there be one single waking hour when you are not thinking about the addiction? Will you ever grow old of the addiction?

Richard ‘Houndog’ Windsor.