Yesterday I had some free time so I got out my box of DVD’s and dug up the first two spanking DVD’s that Shadowlane produced in the latter part of the 1980s. The videos in question are Tony and Eve – A College Fantasy and Temptations By Eve.
If you have read this blog for any length of time then you already know that Tony and Eve – A College Fantasy (my review) has always been my favorite spanking film, and it remains so to this day. The first time that I bought this film, roughly, was around 1989/1990. Out of courtesy to Shadowlane I will add that in regards to quality, this film is not reflective of Shadowlane’s current high standard of video quality. It was filmed in 1986, long before even the common man could own a high definition camera. In fact now that I think of it, with the video editing software that I have for my Youtube channel, I wonder if I can improve the quality of the video?
It’s funny that I mention Youtube actually. When I first started out on Youtube I had read a very important article regarding the quality of videos. The expert writing the article had said that you can get away with a lower quality video, just as long as the audio is high quality. However, you cannot get away with a high quality video if the audio is sub standard. That is the reason why to me the video quality of Tony and Eve is insignificant. What matters most is the dialogue exchanged between the two of them, the spankings themselves, and, it is rarely said like this, the mischievous imp that is Eve Howard. The pacing of the film is astonishing, none of this wham, bam, thank you ma’am type of spanking, the film is completely about the interactions between two people. Don’t get me wrong, the spankings themselves are awesome, I think ‘Sound’ is an appropriate description for them.
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When I came to America I had all of these wonderful spanking thoughts and dreams, but whenever I would see or read about spanking in the UK it always seemed to be done in a cold, uncaring environment. Everything had to be the cane, the absolute cane and nothing but the cane. It didn’t reach the fantasies that I had by any stretch of the imagination.
One of the first videos that I purchased in America was a Nuwest title called ‘Out of the closet’. It starred Eve Howard and Tony Elka along with Ed Lee and Michelle. The first spanking was Eve over Michelle’s lap, then Eve and Michelle are spanked simultaneously over the laps of both men. Finally, Michelle gets the hairbrush from Ed in a scene that I couldn’t even watch. Quite likely you won’t find a harder hairbrush spanking on video, which, unfortunately for me is the polar opposite of what I seek to watch. It goes along with that cold, uncaring environment that I spoke of earlier.
On my next trip to the spanking store, Kinematics (quite likely the next day back then, lol) I found another video featuring Eve Howard. This time it was the above named Tony and Eve – A College Fantasy. Now had the severity of ‘Out of the closet’ been severe right from the get go for every spanking, quite likely I would have never bought Tony and Eve. But I had seen something that I liked that I wanted to see more of.
Now I have heard from both Tony and Eve regarding the quality of the older videos compared to today’s videos, and in fact Tony and I had many a conversation about it at spanking parties over the years. I really do understand where they are coming from, but I hope that Tony understood before he passed away just how important that video was to a great many of us. A spanking film with oodles of levity in it, it was exactly what we had all dreamed of seeing.
I would even go as far as to say that the film completely changed my life. Back then I thought about spanking 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, but up until that point I had never seen what I had wanted to see in a spanking film. Nuwest had given glimpses of it for years, certainly from the old fashioned spanking point of view. Shadowlane on the other hand, why it was like they put their hand into your mind and said “I think this is what you want”. Man alive how true they were, it was everything that I had ever dreamed of and hoped for. Are Shadowlane responsible for Richard Windsor emigrating to America? No!! However, they are a huge part of WHY I wanted to move to America. Their vision is exactly the same vision that I had and wanted, and dare I say craved. Back then spanking was my everything, and I finally found what I had always hoped for. I never wanted to leave America after that, and save for an enforced 18 month residency in the UK between 1992 and 1994, I have been here since 1988 having spent 6 months here in 1987.
Nostalgia is good!! I lost my way in the spanking world a couple of years ago, mostly because of the personal trauma that I had to endure when all of my family passed away one after the other. It even got to a point where someone completely turned me off of spanking. Think about that for a minute, the one thing that I have always devoted my life to, now all of a sudden I hated it all and wanted nothing more to do with it.
My guess is that everything came to a head. With the trauma that I had personally suffered combined with the thoughts that I had about spanking for years, all of a sudden it came crashing down when the disrespectful behavior became intolerable. The spanking thought’s that I refer to was everything up until around 2016. It seems rather silly to put it into writing and perhaps even harder to explain, but I had spanking scenes between 2003 (when I became active) and 2016 that at one time I could have only ever have dreamed of. Everything that I ever wanted, times ten, I was lucky enough to get. I met some truly wonderful people and play partners who I will always have a soft spot for.
The best thing that I ever did was to delete my social media accounts. It was difficult at first because that was the main way that I kept in touch with people, but as I mentioned in the paragraph above, it became intolerable. I deleted all of my social media, scrubbed this website of all pictures, stories, mentions, videos and comments that no longer had a part in my life, and then did the same on my external drives. I deleted everything, both vanilla and spanking related that turned me off of spanking.
Do you know what happened on the way to the fair though? Slowly, very slowly, spanking started to be exciting again. We are talking like a three year break here, from my last days at the Atlantic City spanking party in 2019 when I was as close as I have ever been to hollering at some incredibly rude people, lol (Thanks InspectHerHide for noticing and acting upon it, you saved my reputation :)) to now, where I haven’t actually played in the traditional sense for three years.
There are still things that I want to do, there are still scenes that will fill out my bucket list card, and most importantly there are probably still people who I have yet to meet who are going to have a positive, impactful bearing on my life. Unfortunately I don’t think that I will ever return to spanking parties, that isn’t something that appeals to me anymore. However, when I originally started in the scene I first attended some small gatherings, and that is perhaps something that I may do in the future. In fact I might even be the person organizing these gatherings, I am sure that there are many of my kind who have the same values that I do regarding spanking.
There is still much to learn.
One other thought that I often have is someone in the spanking world who I respect, but who will no longer talk to me. On Facebook I always had two accounts. One of the accounts was me, Richard Windsor in real life where everyone knows who he is and what he does, but I also had a vanilla profile for spanking friends who were not ‘out’. One day a friend posted a linked story on the vanilla account and I took that same link, posted it on my real account along with some smart assed comment such as “Can you believe this religious bullshit”?
Now first things first, I was the one at fault, nobody else. At the time I was not aware that the person who originally posted the article was going to see my post as a “Friend of a friend” which is what my Facebook post settings were set to. Had I have known that they were going to see it, never in a million years would I have posted it. That’s so important for me to say because I would never go out of my way to be spiteful or malicious towards another person, that’s just not in my character and I was horrified that she saw the post, truly horrified.
The thing is though, I did post it, and she did see it, and perhaps quite rightfully she felt betrayed by my posting. Now my thoughts on the posting are as true now as they were then, we both feel strongly about our respective viewpoints, but as a friend I should have never have posted what I posted because it was disrespectful. So my friend confronted me, and that is important to say because I respect her. She didn’t get someone else to do her dirty work for her, she didn’t trash me online to court public sympathy, she confronted me privately where only her and I are aware of what was said.
The bottom line is that it cost me a friendship, my long time friend wasn’t able to remain friends with me because of what I had done and what my opinions were on the subject matter. And there is nobody to blame but myself, it was my behavior that caused the friendship to cease to be. There were a few things afterwards that were said that I didn’t appreciate, but I am smart enough to know that these were comments made in the heat of the moment. You may also be wondering why I am still calling this person a friend seven years later after they have disowned me, lol, well, they were always a friend of mine and they still are, I’m just not a friend of theirs anymore.
There was a lesson that I learned that day, a very important lesson. Since that day I have not posted about my Atheist views. My opinions on theology will never change, and if asked I will respond honestly with my truthful opinion. However, there is no need for me to shout it out from the rooftops that I am an Atheist, sometimes it is much better to keep your big mouth shut 🙂